I did not go through those. I got an imp of the perverse, but not the perverse.
That's right. You're killing this subjective Rorschach test. And I'm not expecting a psychoanalytic report. These were just some things I was thinking about as we [...] gear up for stage two. You can keep your Rorschach results to yourself if that's what you want.
Hm, actually I was hoping nothing on this playlist would make you feel bad [...] lol. But I guess there's no controlling the Rorschach test once it's out of the box. Which parts make you feel bad emotional, if I'm allowed to ask?
I don’t mind you asking. It’s nothing major. Although, if you created this in response to thinking about us getting married, then these next few things do strike me as a little sad:
[1] The placement of “Is She Really Going Out With Him?” At first, I thought it was like a little dig at Jeremy and that was pretty funny. But then I realized it was a you song, which implied to me that you think I’m too good for you. Don’t love that. [2] There are some parts of “She is Mine” that made me think that maybe you’re feeling a bit trapped here. [3] And I just thought “Strange Overtunes” was really beautiful. And that just made me emotional in a big way, which is not that same as bad, but sometimes feels like it is. [4] Last one, I think. I’m still not sure how “Gpetto” makes me feel, but the idea of being found boring by a partner makes me nervous, somehow.
Am I still getting a 💯 on my subjective psychoanalytical Rorschach test?
This is all supposed to be tongue in cheek, remember? I wasn't weeping as I was arranging the order of these songs, don't worry lol.
[1] There's a little bit of that, but in a "ha ha I'm making fun of myself" sort of way, not in an "alas, I'm burdened by Annie's sense of superiority" sort of way. Really (for me) the inclusion is more about your lack of real choice. I guess I'm interested in seeing who you'd actually go for, but I'm still waiting on the official Song Company narrative on that. Honestly, I was kind of hoping you'd have something in your desk drawer to shed light on the whole issue, like a note from someone? But I guess that's more nightstand material, anyway. [2] That's actually really funny you think that. I always thought "She is Mine" is about the woman he's singing to feeling trapped; the title is supposed to be ironic. He's telling her it's okay to go and that he'll be alright. [3] Hm, this answer gets you 100 out of 100 possible points on the "Annie is Human" part of the test. 👍 [4] I think the song is supposed to be at least a little unsettling (but tongue in cheek! remember!). The boredom bit isn't why I included it, though. But very interesting you honed in on that part.
I know. And I wasn't weeping when I said it made me a little emotional. Most things make me emotional. I cried during both Top Guns.
[1] Goin' through my desk drawers for some poetry from some stupid jerk who's tryin' to steal my heart away from you, huh? You won't find any. I've never dated the type of person who would write me poetry. Don't scribble that down like it's a Type Descriptor or anything. I think romantic gestures are out of vogue with most people, unfortunately. I just happen to have Romanticize Everything disease and that's on me. I'm not sure I want to tell you my dating history post high school. I feel like you'll overanalyze it and draw comparisons. [2] Oh, that does make more sense. Nice job with the media literacy. But that makes me sad too! I don't feel trapped (even in a tongue in cheek way, I know I know). [3] Phew! That was the portion I was most worried about passing. "I'll harmonize / See the music in your face / That your words cannot explain." I loved that part. I mean, obviously I did. You knew I would, you put it on the playlist on purpose. [...] Can I tell you something you're going to hate? Your alarm clock is so annoying. [4] Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's the point of the Rorschach test. Go ahead and write that down.
Now that's interesting. I would have guessed the American exceptionalism in that franchise would have put you off of it, but you really weren't kidding when you said you were into intense interpersonal relationships against a backdrop of war lmfao.
[1] I probably will overanalyze it. I just overanalyze things in general. [...] Not to be cringe and serious for a second, but I think people actually get a lot of information from touch, like more than you'd expect. So I feel as if I'm constantly on the back foot, trying to keep up with what everyone else means and wants. But this is a lot of great information to overanalyze already, thanks. "Romantic gestures are out of vogue . . . unfortunately." 🧐 Lol. [2] I mean your interpretation works too. Also very funny we're both worried that the other feels trapped. Almost like a real marriage. [3] I didn't know for sure you would, I just really hoped you would. But God. I do hate to know that because I kind of need my alarm that way for quasi-medical reasons. I guess I can sleep in headphones when we share a place? I was hoping the walls/floors were a little thicker here. My last apartment was a mother-in-law suite next to someone's garage; nobody has ever complained about my alarm before. [4] My notes so far: Annie is afraid of being seen as boring despite being anti-boring. Tom Cruise and Val Kilmer stir deep feelings in her heart. Anthony Edwards stirs double deep feelings. Patience frayed by Lou Bega.
I know. It DOES put me off, but people sacrificing themselves for a cause (even objectively stupid ones) gets me for some reason.
[1] [...] Have you ever just asked someone if they would mind if you touched them, outside of the medical setting? It seems to me like you've developed a pretty effective Lou Bega based system to remain respectful. [...] Or is it just too much hassle to bother? Sorry if that's not okay to ask. [2] It's a good thing that, unlike a real marriage, we're being honest about our anxieties. Right? [3] I have no trouble going back to sleep, if I want to, so it's not a big deal. You really do know how to pick an ear worm though. [...] I hope this doesn't make you uncomfortable, but I guess it's only fair for you to know. I can sort of feel everything you're doing in your apartment, as long as it's making vibrations. But that's true for everyone in my apartment's relative vicinity. And I just ignore it. [4] All accurate, per source. I thought you meant the Minnesota Timberwolves player, Anthony Edwards, at first. And I was like, "Yeah, I do actually have some double deep feelings about Anthony Edwards and I'm glad you brung it up because I've been dying to talk about it."
[1] […] I guess here is where I can go into a little of my dating history. I have touched people outside of a medical setting, let’s call it that lol. I would date long-distance, and that’d account for emotional shit. And I would […] meet people in between, because I was like 22 and wanted that. It only really works as a one-off. I’ve never met someone who was actually okay with my deal as a continued thing. Either they realize how creepy it is (like I can pick up a lot, thoughts and memories even you might have forgotten about), or I’m doing my mental Lou Bega routine the whole time and it’s not enjoyable for me. Tl;dr, I can ask and I have asked, but in my experience it only works when we have zero to limited context of each other and no future. And the older I get, the more it is of a hassle. Anyway. Not to get imp of the perverse perverse on you. [2] […] Right. [3] That sounds like a lot of information overload for you? How sensitive of a vibration are we talking about? [4] Oh, Ant-Man, another large adult son. Speak your truth.
[1] I did sort of wonder, considering your dating profile and all. Maybe that's perverse of me. I hope you find the person that it doesn't feel creepy with, and I know what you're going to say, but I don't want you to stop looking on my account. [3] It is. I was mostly learning to dampen the external stimulus while I was at LBJEF. It's gotten a lot better with time but it can still be annoying. I'm not super sensitive, compared to some liminals. Basically anything that shakes the floor or [...] the furniture. I don't think I could tell if someone was tiptoeing in another room. It's not quite like enhanced hearing, although I can sometimes feel heavy snoring or a hard cough. [4] I just thought it was lame for him to throw a chair after the Timberwolves were eliminated. But it also definitely wasn't an assault. I like it when all the players hug after the game. Sue me!
[1] You're okay. Some people have just straight up asked me in crass ways. There's sort of a sideshow curiosity aspect to it all, but idk. I figure we all deal with that as Liminals. [...] And if you know, why would you say it lol? Maybe I don't want to look anymore. [3] Oh, well that's a relief. I don't think I'm doing anything that would trigger that? Other people though, that's an interesting thing to know about your neighbor. Haha. [4] Leaning into the intense interpersonal bond, I see. That's why you need to be a Lakers fan. You get Bron collapsing to the floor, you really feel the pathos. When they were eliminated I hated it but I could also pretty much imagine all of them climbing into one huge bed together and crying themselves to sleep. Incredibly rich fan experience.
[1] Maybe it's my turn to be Rodion. But if that's really true, I won't bring it up again. [3] No, you're a pretty easy neighbor. I can mostly just tell where you are in your apartment but not what you're doing or saying. Besides cooking. I can always tell when you're cooking. But my other neighbors are Isaiah, Parsons, and Lou. It could certainly be worse. [4] I have an intense interpersonal bond with Jokic. I've gotten a lot of usage out of the 'I can't believe this is my life!' Lebron meme, and I really respect that, but the content for a Jokic fan is just unmatched. Maybe you'll convince me someday, but I don't know.
[1] I'm okay. If you get Rodion Raskolnikov guilt fever over me, I will divorce you and it will be acrimonious. [2] Oh noooooo, my cooking vibrations, lol. Why is it distinct? Or actually don't answer that. Lou and Isaiah seem like they'd be okay—I feel like Lou tiptoes in his own house (which kind of sucks but what can you do) and Isaiah probably doesn't move much around because of his powers? Parson though. Lmfao. When we get a place I need to be on the opposite end of the building from him. [4] Okay, Jokic is my son. Is he our son now? I can live with that. I'm happy to share. I think everyone should love him, every single fucking day.
Anyway, all this talk about touching outside of medical settings has got me thinking... Are you alone? Don't open my next DMs if you're around people. 😉
LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO one of my college friends commented on this old picture and brought it back up on Facebook. I'm 87% sure you're not actually into feet because I don't think you would have joked about feet and johnsons and LBJ at Raine's party if you were. [...] But in the 13% chance I'm wrong, this one's a freebie, I guess? Lol.
You know, a 13% chance is pretty high! What if an honest to God sext was the last thing you ever sent me before I went off to war with the moles? Eager to make sure I come home safe with all my important parts, so we don't end up like the Chatterleys, I guess.
Thirteen shmirteen. I love living dangerously, what can I say?
Now this is a little unfunny, because I distinctly remember you being all, "Oh brother, I wish everyone would stop acting like I'm about to do something dangerous!" right before your last field mission. And then immediately after that, you got attacked by 1950s B-horror movie creatures.
Alright, but I just hope you know that you've set 13% chance of inspiring genuine horniness as the acceptable threshold for going through with all future comedic bits.
Yeah, I sort of regret saying that. I was fine, if you recall. I feel bad that the danger came here to the station though. That's why we're going back out. We're not going to let that happen again.
13 is my lucky number. And if feet pics are what it takes to motivate you to not get eaten, exploded, dissolved, macerated, lacerated, or jellified, then call me Mr. WikiFeet.
Hm, maybe do not definitively assert that things won't happen if those things have over a 13% horniness threshold chance of occurring, lol.
You're right. I shouldn't make promises that are outside of my control to keep. But I do promise to be careful.
[...] Is there a creature that inspires a 13% chance of horniness in you that I should try to capture? A sort of Shape of Water situation. A mummy, maybe?
Not to rag on you, though. I don’t think you wouldn’t be careful. Just, you know, normal person-to-person worry.
I like how you jumped straight to creature lmfao. There’s a 13% chance I might just be a normal guy underneath it all. Although I have been trying to become more positive about bugs. Did you know roly-poly bugs take heavy metals out of the soil? If you catch me lunging randomly off the sidewalk, that’s because I’m trying not to step on those little guys.
No, I know. It's nice to be worried about. I just don't want you to stress.
That's actually really sweet. I mean, taking one step to the side to avoid killing a living thing for the crime of being small should be the standard for all humans, but I know that it's not. So, thank you. Anyway, what I'm picking up is that you're into Mothman. Which makes sense. He's the most cut of all the cryptids.
Consistent ambient stress levels of 13% keep me healthy.
Actually here you’re wrong. 1) Everybody is into Mothman, so I don’t want to be. 2) So what if he’s cut? Not into ultra-ripped bods. Almost anybody can get a great ass, that’s just weighted hip-thrusts and Russian deadlifts. He’s not special. What are we going to do, throw him a party? No.
A sexier monster would be the Alien Queen from Aliens. Hardworking single mom that spits acid. […] But now you don’t write that down as a Type Descriptor.
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dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 08:51 pm (UTC)That's right. You're killing this subjective Rorschach test. And I'm not expecting a psychoanalytic report. These were just some things I was thinking about as we [...] gear up for stage two. You can keep your Rorschach results to yourself if that's what you want.
Hm, actually I was hoping nothing on this playlist would make you feel bad [...] lol. But I guess there's no controlling the Rorschach test once it's out of the box. Which parts make you feel bad emotional, if I'm allowed to ask?
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 09:24 pm (UTC)I don’t mind you asking. It’s nothing major. Although, if you created this in response to thinking about us getting married, then these next few things do strike me as a little sad:
[1] The placement of “Is She Really Going Out With Him?” At first, I thought it was like a little dig at Jeremy and that was pretty funny. But then I realized it was a you song, which implied to me that you think I’m too good for you. Don’t love that.
[2] There are some parts of “She is Mine” that made me think that maybe you’re feeling a bit trapped here.
[3] And I just thought “Strange Overtunes” was really beautiful. And that just made me emotional in a big way, which is not that same as bad, but sometimes feels like it is.
[4] Last one, I think. I’m still not sure how “Gpetto” makes me feel, but the idea of being found boring by a partner makes me nervous, somehow.
Am I still getting a 💯 on my subjective psychoanalytical Rorschach test?
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 09:53 pm (UTC)[1] There's a little bit of that, but in a "ha ha I'm making fun of myself" sort of way, not in an "alas, I'm burdened by Annie's sense of superiority" sort of way. Really (for me) the inclusion is more about your lack of real choice. I guess I'm interested in seeing who you'd actually go for, but I'm still waiting on the official Song Company narrative on that. Honestly, I was kind of hoping you'd have something in your desk drawer to shed light on the whole issue, like a note from someone? But I guess that's more nightstand material, anyway.
[2] That's actually really funny you think that. I always thought "She is Mine" is about the woman he's singing to feeling trapped; the title is supposed to be ironic. He's telling her it's okay to go and that he'll be alright.
[3] Hm, this answer gets you 100 out of 100 possible points on the "Annie is Human" part of the test. 👍
[4] I think the song is supposed to be at least a little unsettling (but tongue in cheek! remember!). The boredom bit isn't why I included it, though. But very interesting you honed in on that part.
💯🔥💯🔥💯🔥
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 10:25 pm (UTC)[1] Goin' through my desk drawers for some poetry from some stupid jerk who's tryin' to steal my heart away from you, huh? You won't find any. I've never dated the type of person who would write me poetry. Don't scribble that down like it's a Type Descriptor or anything. I think romantic gestures are out of vogue with most people, unfortunately. I just happen to have Romanticize Everything disease and that's on me. I'm not sure I want to tell you my dating history post high school. I feel like you'll overanalyze it
and draw comparisons.[2] Oh, that does make more sense. Nice job with the media literacy. But that makes me sad too! I don't feel trapped (even in a tongue in cheek way, I know I know).
[3] Phew! That was the portion I was most worried about passing. "I'll harmonize / See the music in your face / That your words cannot explain." I loved that part. I mean, obviously I did. You knew I would, you put it on the playlist on purpose. [...] Can I tell you something you're going to hate? Your alarm clock is so annoying.
[4] Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's the point of the Rorschach test. Go ahead and write that down.
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 10:48 pm (UTC)[1] I probably will overanalyze it. I just overanalyze things in general. [...] Not to be cringe and serious for a second, but I think people actually get a lot of information from touch, like more than you'd expect. So I feel as if I'm constantly on the back foot, trying to keep up with what everyone else means and wants. But this is a lot of great information to overanalyze already, thanks. "Romantic gestures are out of vogue . . . unfortunately." 🧐 Lol.
[2] I mean your interpretation works too. Also very funny we're both worried that the other feels trapped. Almost like a real marriage.
[3] I didn't know for sure you would, I just really hoped you would. But God. I do hate to know that because I kind of need my alarm that way for quasi-medical reasons. I guess I can sleep in headphones when we share a place? I was hoping the walls/floors were a little thicker here. My last apartment was a mother-in-law suite next to someone's garage; nobody has ever complained about my alarm before.
[4] My notes so far: Annie is afraid of being seen as boring despite being anti-boring. Tom Cruise and Val Kilmer stir deep feelings in her heart. Anthony Edwards stirs double deep feelings. Patience frayed by Lou Bega.
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 11:09 pm (UTC)[1] [...] Have you ever just asked someone if they would mind if you touched them, outside of the medical setting? It seems to me like you've developed a pretty effective Lou Bega based system to remain respectful. [...] Or is it just too much hassle to bother? Sorry if that's not okay to ask.
[2] It's a good thing that, unlike a real marriage, we're being honest about our anxieties. Right?
[3] I have no trouble going back to sleep, if I want to, so it's not a big deal. You really do know how to pick an ear worm though. [...] I hope this doesn't make you uncomfortable, but I guess it's only fair for you to know. I can sort of feel everything you're doing in your apartment, as long as it's making vibrations. But that's true for everyone in my apartment's relative vicinity. And I just ignore it.
[4] All accurate, per source. I thought you meant the Minnesota Timberwolves player, Anthony Edwards, at first. And I was like, "Yeah, I do actually have some double deep feelings about Anthony Edwards and I'm glad you brung it up because I've been dying to talk about it."
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-12 11:39 pm (UTC)[2] […] Right.
[3] That sounds like a lot of information overload for you? How sensitive of a vibration are we talking about?
[4] Oh, Ant-Man, another large adult son. Speak your truth.
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-13 12:23 am (UTC)[3] It is. I was mostly learning to dampen the external stimulus while I was at LBJEF. It's gotten a lot better with time but it can still be annoying. I'm not super sensitive, compared to some liminals. Basically anything that shakes the floor or [...] the furniture. I don't think I could tell if someone was tiptoeing in another room. It's not quite like enhanced hearing, although I can sometimes feel heavy snoring or a hard cough.
[4] I just thought it was lame for him to throw a chair after the Timberwolves were eliminated. But it also definitely wasn't an assault. I like it when all the players hug after the game. Sue me!
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-13 12:52 am (UTC)[3] Oh, well that's a relief. I don't think I'm doing anything that would trigger that? Other people though, that's an interesting thing to know about your neighbor. Haha.
[4] Leaning into the intense interpersonal bond, I see. That's why you need to be a Lakers fan. You get Bron collapsing to the floor, you really feel the pathos. When they were eliminated I hated it but I could also pretty much imagine all of them climbing into one huge bed together and crying themselves to sleep. Incredibly rich fan experience.
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-13 05:04 am (UTC)[3] No, you're a pretty easy neighbor. I can mostly just tell where you are in your apartment but not what you're doing or saying. Besides cooking. I can always tell when you're cooking. But my other neighbors are Isaiah, Parsons, and Lou. It could certainly be worse.
[4] I have an intense interpersonal bond with Jokic. I've gotten a lot of usage out of the 'I can't believe this is my life!' Lebron meme, and I really respect that, but the content for a Jokic fan is just unmatched. Maybe you'll convince me someday, but I don't know.
dm [6/12]
Date: 2023-06-13 05:26 am (UTC)[1] Is it so unbelievable if I say I like this?dm [6/12, much later, like 2:30 AM later]
Date: 2023-06-13 05:26 am (UTC)[2] Oh noooooo, my cooking vibrations, lol. Why is it distinct? Or actually don't answer that. Lou and Isaiah seem like they'd be okay—I feel like Lou tiptoes in his own house (which kind of sucks but what can you do) and Isaiah probably doesn't move much around because of his powers? Parson though. Lmfao. When we get a place I need to be on the opposite end of the building from him.
[4] Okay, Jokic is my son. Is he our son now? I can live with that. I'm happy to share. I think everyone should love him, every single fucking day.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 02:46 pm (UTC)dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 02:46 pm (UTC)dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 02:46 pm (UTC)LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO one of my college friends commented on this old picture and brought it back up on Facebook. I'm 87% sure you're not actually into feet because I don't think you would have joked about feet and johnsons and LBJ at Raine's party if you were. [...] But in the 13% chance I'm wrong, this one's a freebie, I guess? Lol.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 03:09 pm (UTC)Wow. Good morning to me. ... do you have one with better resolution?
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 03:10 pm (UTC)Anyway, actual good morning.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 03:16 pm (UTC)dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 03:20 pm (UTC)Now this is a little unfunny, because I distinctly remember you being all, "Oh brother, I wish everyone would stop acting like I'm about to do something dangerous!" right before your last field mission. And then immediately after that, you got attacked by 1950s B-horror movie creatures.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 03:30 pm (UTC)Yeah, I sort of regret saying that. I was fine, if you recall. I feel bad that the danger came here to the station though. That's why we're going back out. We're not going to let that happen again.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 03:45 pm (UTC)Hm, maybe do not definitively assert that things won't happen if those things have over a 13% horniness threshold chance of occurring, lol.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 04:03 pm (UTC)[...] Is there a creature that inspires a 13% chance of horniness in you that I should try to capture? A sort of Shape of Water situation. A mummy, maybe?
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 04:13 pm (UTC)I like how you jumped straight to creature lmfao. There’s a 13% chance I might just be a normal guy underneath it all. Although I have been trying to become more positive about bugs. Did you know roly-poly bugs take heavy metals out of the soil? If you catch me lunging randomly off the sidewalk, that’s because I’m trying not to step on those little guys.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 04:26 pm (UTC)That's actually really sweet. I mean, taking one step to the side to avoid killing a living thing for the crime of being small should be the standard for all humans, but I know that it's not. So, thank you. Anyway, what I'm picking up is that you're into Mothman. Which makes sense. He's the most cut of all the cryptids.
dm [6/13, morning]
Date: 2023-06-13 04:36 pm (UTC)Actually here you’re wrong. 1) Everybody is into Mothman, so I don’t want to be. 2) So what if he’s cut? Not into ultra-ripped bods. Almost anybody can get a great ass, that’s just weighted hip-thrusts and Russian deadlifts. He’s not special. What are we going to do, throw him a party? No.
A sexier monster would be the Alien Queen from Aliens. Hardworking single mom that spits acid. […] But now you don’t write that down as a Type Descriptor.
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