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“I cannot make you understand.
I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me.
I cannot even explain it to myself.”

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May. 17th, 2023 09:36 pm
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DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 12:58 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺255)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
I won’t. […] I’m sorry, Annie, I didn’t think it’d be a big deal. It felt like telling you about every time I lit up.

I guess I should apologize to Evan now. She said I wasn’t myself and I didn’t believe her.

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 01:34 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺313)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
The blank spots, […] I don’t think I could do that on purpose even if I wanted to.

Linus wasn’t happy. […] I almost don’t want to tell him much more because he has a lot on his plate already, being a new Explorer and the stuff his father. And Evan […] told me that she loved me platonically after I threw up in the bathroom, so I really need to think about how I’m going to talk to her again. Maybe give things more time. I don’t know.

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 02:24 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺293)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
You're closer to him than I am, I'll leave it to you. Ideally, he'd just forget about it, though, and you wouldn't have to say anything.

That exact word. [...] Annie, if I thought something was up with Evan, I'd tell you. It's not rude you're asking, it's just really not like that.

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 02:32 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺004)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
Yes, that's what's so great about him, unfortunately for me.

No, I just threw up. I didn't even know how I got in the bathroom. The circumstances weren't exactly conducive to warm, fuzzy feelings. [...] Did you happen to see how quickly she left the party, by any chance?

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 02:51 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺014)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
Tell her what? That she reminds me of my sister? I bet she’ll platonically love that.

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 03:04 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺015)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
The Toblerone bars Evan bought me, each one costs almost $120 online, more with shipping. And she got me three. Maybe partially as a fuck you for asking her about her “vacation,” but also because it probably doesn’t occur to her she doesn’t have to go into debt to make someone else happy. My sister was the same way, she’d trade her lunch vouchers for Yu-gi-oh cards because she knew I liked them. You know my lighter? Jules stole that for me. I was 8, I didn’t even smoke, I just liked Charmander. […] It’s not a good comparison.

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 03:47 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺332)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
Actually, Annie, forget I said that. Trying to keep it fun as Guy You Fuck rather than Guy With Stupid Problems, and as it is I already have memory issues. […]

Lol, “Jesus, okay” is right. Sorry, got a little too much there. I’ll figure out what to say to Evan. But I wouldn’t sweat it, she has Sal.

DM, 9/6

Date: 2023-09-07 05:38 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (🩺305)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
Thanks. I’m making everything sound like a bigger deal than it is, probably.

I’ll text you about dinner plans later, gotta run. Bye, Annie.