[…] Unfortunately I could go all night with the niche think pieces. But if you’re a true crime girly then I guess I am, too.
Maybe he did. I’m glad you’re getting a kick out of it. Honestly, I wish they’d taught Russian at JEF, and I wanted to take it in undergrad but it never worked with my schedule. I love and hate the idea of translations—it frustrates me not to know the original text, but comparing translations is so much fun.
And yeah, I have a little guy in here. My own Margaret Atwood voyeur man. Word’s still out on if he’s good. How about you? Do you have a little cartoon Annie McGuire narrating everything?
Unfortunately??? Hmm, perhaps we have different concepts of fortune. Don't send me any true crime articles though. That's not really my bag, actually. I'm interested in court room drama, in the sense that I think it's important to inspect societal concepts of justice and guilt, but I promise that you will never come home to me watching like ... Mommy Murders over a pint of Haagen-Dazs.
Oh, me too. (Should we learn Russian?? Kidding, unless...) I seriously considered pursuing a Religion major when I was applying to colleges. I did get in to the Harvard Divinity School but when I told Mr. Morris that I was going to become a Talmudic Scholar and save the world by creating the most perfect translation of the Old Testament he looked so fucking disappointed in me. Anyway, saved my life! Shoutout to Mr. Morris. He always knew I was a true Jock for Rocks.
I can't wait to meet your Voyeur Man, is that weird? I bet he's a little evil in a funny way. I took a speed reading class when I was like... eight? (Insane!) Anyway, now I have to really concentrate if I want to hear a narrator in my head when I'm reading to myself, otherwise it's just kind of vibes and osmosis in there. My Annie McGuire will show up sometimes when I'm daydreaming or when I want to make a bad decision. I call her my Delusion Demon lol. She's pretty stupid. She just says things like, "Yes, girl, send that risky text." All of my good thoughts are my own, thank you for very much.
Tell me if you think this is a bad idea (so that we can get divorced for irreconcilable differences in opinion on what makes something a good idea), but after we've [...] calmed down, can I lay on your lap while you read?
I’d be okay with that, actually. […] Mostly because it’d mean I’m coming home to you. Is that weird to say? […] Who cares.
(I’ve never thought about it, but I wonder if mind-linking can speed up language acquisition? Like maybe only one of us needs to take a class. Something to think about.) You have a lot of time to pursue Talmudic studies. […] We You may not work at Enodia forever. You have a long life ahead of you to become a Holy Rock Jock, or whatever else you’re interested in being.
He’s a little evil. Sometimes very, depending on what’s going on. I think you should listen to your Delusion Demon more, though. She sounds nice. 🙂 Also, it’s funny you say you took a speed-reading class when you were eight, because I’d built my entire eleven-year-old identity around being a fast reader and then you absolutely killed that. But you made me read faster, so it worked out in the end.
[…] I think that’s a really really good idea, actually. Let’s do it. What should I read? We? It’ll be a we.
🥰 🥰 🥰 That feels really good to hear. You know, like a week ago you said 'if we decide to move in together...' Are you more sure now?
(We only linked in the usual way that one time you healed the gash on my forehead, and beyond the seeing double part, I felt like our minds were pretty separate. But I take it you have to be concentrating to keep up that barrier, so I assume that you can bring it back down? I guess I'm not sure if it will really be how I've been imagining it. I wouldn't have thought I'd get better at sudoku just by being in your Sudoku Master Mind, but that would be very cool if it works that way.) [...] Well, we'll be pretty occupied for awhile, but maybe I'll become a late in life Rabbanit. I know I won't work at Enodia forever. What do you think you'd want to do with your life if you weren't in Medicine?
I'm sure you'll meet her in Montreal. You can't believe everything she says though. She tends to get a little ahead of herself, hence the nickname. [...] Pretty crazy that we've been committing ego murder against each other since the moment we met. It's sort of sweet. I think we make each other better in a lot of ways.
Oh, good! Honestly, anything. We can read something new, if you'd like. But I bet I'd like hearing you think through that well-loved copy of The Idiot you have in your apartment.
Yes. I think we should give it a shot. If I turn out to be an awful housemate, it's not like there's a housing shortage at the Station. I have been deliberately keeping the toilet seat down, so at least there's that.
(Confession: I'm not really sure how my powers work, or their limits. I do have to concentrate to keep everything nicely separate, but I didn't realize it was possible for me to [...] subsume someone else's subconscious like what happened after the storm. I'm figuring out a training routine, so maybe in a few months we'll know more.) I'm not sure, good question. [...] Music historian? Film preservationist? I can sort of see myself as a weird older guy who runs an independent museum out of his apartment.
I know you make me better. You said the other day that the reason I'm into your insect form is because it "reminds [me] there are things much bigger than us at play, and that [I] feel lucky to be a part of it." But you in your normal form remind me of that and make me feel lucky to be a part of things with you, too.
Alright. But you have to promise not to get too annoyed at my comparatively slower reading.
That would be a fun scandal for everybody to talk about for a few days: Jack & Annie move in together and then right back out. But I don't see that happening. You have a lot of stored up good will. We could probably survive me falling into the toilet in the middle of the night at least four times. Should I put in for a housing transfer for the ... 21st? Frankie Medina, Sage of Colchester, suddenly has a wide open schedule all next week.
(A training routine? Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I'd rather you subsume my subconscious than someone else's. In fact, it would make me like... scary jealous if you made a Mind Palace with another person.) Hmm, I can see that. Or like an art house movie theatre where you only hire youths in the middle of their Adventureland summer. Y'know, give 'em a space to figure things out.
You're in rare form today, Jack. You've got me spinning around in my desk chair like a total dork. What's next? Twirling my hair? [...] I know I'm the one who used the word lucky first, but do you feel like it's luck? Sometimes I think it's more than that.
We can go slow. I just want to hear your inner voice.
Annie, if you fall into the toilet, I promise to always fish you out. That’s my wedding vow. But you won’t, because I’ve been keeping track and my success rate for putting the seat down is 100%. […] Also because I put a sticky note on top of my toilet tank that says “DOWN, DUMBASS.” But yes, the 21st, let’s do it. I have day shifts all this week so I can drive us up to Colchester whenever you’re off work. And I’ll make our Montreal bookings for […] the 19-20? More days? […] Fewer? If something big happens at the Station, I guess the both of us need to be around.
([…] I think the main reason I subsumed you is because on some level, I wanted to. I kind of doubt I’d be able to repeat that with anyone else. Anyway, by training routine I meant more like improving my ability to work metal, or selective mind-linking.) Curmudgeon arthouse theater owner begrudgingly shepherds youths through their growing pains, and sometimes his Talmudic scholar wife pops in to dispense eccentric life advice. I dig it.
I can think of a few other things, now Frankie Medina is free. […] And no, it can’t just be luck. Rifts opened in the sky and made impossible things possible, so it has to be more than luck. […] That’s how I feel, anyway. We met at the wrong time and then the right time—not many people get that kind of a second chance.
We’ll go slow. […] Do you like when people play with your hair?
Look at you. Regular B.F. Skinner over there. Has spending time with me made you more reliant on the scientific method or have you always been like this? [...] Do you think you could take an extra day off on short notice? I'm not sure what you have planned for Montreal, but if I get my way, we'll be spending a lot of time in the hotel room, so maybe budget that in. I'm not worried about the Station. We can always drive back if it's a huge emergency. And it better be a HUGE emergency.
(I won't lie. I was scared, at the time. But only because I wasn't sure what was going to happen to my body if we couldn't find our way out. I don't mind that you saw my memories(??). Honestly, I'm glad it happened, although it's okay if you don't feel the same way. If it turns out that we can share expertise through a mind-link, I can be your personal inorganic chemistry tutor inside your head. Not that I think you need my help or anything.) Yeah, that's a good one. I like imagining all the different lives I could live with you. What're you gonna do in the time line where I run off to become a horseback acrobat?
Yeah? Like what? 😇 [...] I feel the same way. I just have this sense that we're meant to be together reconnect this way. And that maybe we've connected before.
I would like it very much if you played with my hair, yes.
Edited (stares directly at the fourth wall) Date: 2023-08-12 05:56 pm (UTC)
I like running personal experiments. 🙂 […] I’ll take the 18th off. When’s the soonest you can leave work on Thursday?
(At the time I was scared, but I was angrier at myself that it happened. Now that it’s over, I’m glad too, in a weird way. Obviously I enjoy talking to you, but it’s kind of a relief that you might understand things about me now without me having to explain much. And vice versa? Is that what you mean? Also, I was terrible at inorganic chemistry, so I appreciate any help, even belated.) Hm. Die, probably lol. I’m kidding. […] In that one I probably just go to see your show, we make eye contact, then I go home to my ordinary life and never see you again. But I feel changed. There have to be a few like that.
Nice try, Annie. I’m not about to air out my libido on IRIS intranet. Some things have to stay between us. And it’s possible, I like that idea. But I also have a lot to learn about you here and now, where you’re not a horseback acrobat and I’m not a Dune mentat or anything.
Will you still run experiments on me after we're married? I should be able to leave by 2:30? 3?
(Yeah, that's what I mean. And it made me realize some things about myself too. Although I do really love talking to you. I hope we don't stop just because we can touch. When I think about us together, I don't usually imagine us kissing, actually. I picture us talking quietly, is that lame? I'd like to hear about your happiest memories and your dumbest ideas and all the things you'd still like to do. I mean, maybe not in the heat of the moment, but I find it satisfying to think about us helping each other get what we want from life.) Eep. To think that was almost this life, except instead of changing you into a jaded daydreamer with an inexplicable obsession with leotards I just changed you into a faster reader.
Can't fault me for trying! [...] You're right. Let's just live this one for now. Although you know I would make a baller Bene Gesserit.
To the list of things I like? You can cross out feet. Or put a little footnote that says 'No more than is usual and acceptable.'
Only with your consent. But also isn’t being in a relationship living out one extended double-blind? 3 is good, we can leave here by 4 and that’ll get us to dinner in Montreal no later than 8ish.
(No, let’s keep talking. The mind-linking thing can be for when I need to share an observation quietly. Information-rich footsie, you know? But everything you just wrote, I want that too.) A faster reader with the appropriate level of awe and appreciation for bugs and insects.
You’re kind of already halfway there. Can you do the Voice? I feel like you could, if you really put your mind to it.
Hah. No, foot fetishes are out, scalp massages are in.
Hmm, I suppose. Although I hope that if you want something from me, you'll just ask. No need to build a Skinner box. [...] And that sounds perfect. I'm very excited.
(Secret spy footsie?! Yesss, I love that. We'll be even more annoying and more incomprehensible to other people than ever before.) 🪳💖
Honestly, I bet I could. I think I probably have inadvertently used the Voice in the past, actually. I'm not really keen on finding out, in this life, at least.
This Dating Jack thing just keeps getting better and better.
I’ll ask, and you’ll ask. I’m mostly kidding, anyway—I mostly meant relationships are a double-blind in the sense that neither of us knows what will happen. But that’s not necessarily a bad thing.
(🦶 can take on a new, noble meaning.)
[…] Ah. Shit. I’m sorry, Annie, stupid joke. Forget I said that, please.
💆🏻♀️ It’s like every single emoji was made for us.
No, I see what you mean. And, of course, we don't know for sure what will happen. But I tend to be of the opinion that things like relationships are more within my control than not, although maybe that's not the case this time.
It's okay. Really. The fact that I've more than likely made people do things that they didn't want to do or say things they didn't want to say is something I'll need to come to terms with eventually. See above.
Anyway, you make me feel 🥰 and I trust you, so I'm going to try not to worry about it.
Noting some tendencies here. 📝 I have actually noticed you have a take-charge kind of attitude. Even in school you made things happen. I’m not saying I’m passive (although you’re free to think so), I just save my assertiveness for special occasions. You’ll see. […] And I mean that generally.
Oh. […] That’s cute. […] 🥰 haha. […] Was that good, or should I not do that again? Anyway, I’ll let you do what you gotta do. Talk to you later, Annie. […] ☺️
Edited (Jack took a screenshot of the last part of her message.) Date: 2023-08-14 09:44 am (UTC)
I know you're not passive. A passive person wouldn't be here right now, doing what we're doing. You're gentle, but firm, and I really, really like that. And I don't mean as a general preference. I like it when you are assertive with me.
You can send me all the blushing emojis you'd like, if the spirit so moves you. You don't really need to ask permission from me. Talk soon, Jack 🥰
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Date: 2023-08-10 11:57 pm (UTC)Maybe he did. I’m glad you’re getting a kick out of it. Honestly, I wish they’d taught Russian at JEF, and I wanted to take it in undergrad but it never worked with my schedule. I love and hate the idea of translations—it frustrates me not to know the original text, but comparing translations is so much fun.
And yeah, I have a little guy in here. My own Margaret Atwood voyeur man. Word’s still out on if he’s good. How about you? Do you have a little cartoon Annie McGuire narrating everything?
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-11 01:02 am (UTC)Oh, me too. (Should we learn Russian?? Kidding, unless...) I seriously considered pursuing a Religion major when I was applying to colleges. I did get in to the Harvard Divinity School but when I told Mr. Morris that I was going to become a Talmudic Scholar and save the world by creating the most perfect translation of the Old Testament he looked so fucking disappointed in me. Anyway, saved my life! Shoutout to Mr. Morris. He always knew I was a true Jock for Rocks.
I can't wait to meet your Voyeur Man, is that weird? I bet he's a little evil in a funny way. I took a speed reading class when I was like... eight? (Insane!) Anyway, now I have to really concentrate if I want to hear a narrator in my head when I'm reading to myself, otherwise it's just kind of vibes and osmosis in there. My Annie McGuire will show up sometimes when I'm daydreaming or when I want to make a bad decision. I call her my Delusion Demon lol. She's pretty stupid. She just says things like, "Yes, girl, send that risky text." All of my good thoughts are my own, thank you for very much.
Tell me if you think this is a bad idea (so that we can get divorced for irreconcilable differences in opinion on what makes something a good idea), but after we've [...] calmed down, can I lay on your lap while you read?
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-11 02:48 am (UTC)Is that weird to say? […] Who cares.(I’ve never thought about it, but I wonder if mind-linking can speed up language acquisition? Like maybe only one of us needs to take a class. Something to think about.) You have a lot of time to pursue Talmudic studies. […]
WeYou may not work at Enodia forever. You have a long life ahead of you to become a Holy Rock Jock, or whatever else you’re interested in being.He’s a little evil. Sometimes very, depending on what’s going on. I think you should listen to your Delusion Demon more, though. She sounds nice. 🙂 Also, it’s funny you say you took a speed-reading class when you were eight, because I’d built my entire eleven-year-old identity around being a fast reader and then you absolutely killed that. But you made me read faster, so it worked out in the end.
[…] I think that’s a really
reallygood idea, actually. Let’s do it. What should I read? We? It’ll be a we.DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-11 05:52 pm (UTC)(We only linked in the usual way that one time you healed the gash on my forehead, and beyond the seeing double part, I felt like our minds were pretty separate. But I take it you have to be concentrating to keep up that barrier, so I assume that you can bring it back down? I guess I'm not sure if it will really be how I've been imagining it. I wouldn't have thought I'd get better at sudoku just by being in your Sudoku Master Mind, but that would be very cool if it works that way.) [...] Well, we'll be pretty occupied for awhile, but maybe I'll become a late in life Rabbanit. I know I won't work at Enodia forever. What do you think you'd want to do with your life if you weren't in Medicine?
I'm sure you'll meet her in Montreal. You can't believe everything she says though. She tends to get a little ahead of herself, hence the nickname. [...] Pretty crazy that we've been committing ego murder against each other since the moment we met. It's sort of sweet. I think we make each other better in a lot of ways.
Oh, good! Honestly, anything. We can read something new, if you'd like. But I bet I'd like hearing you think through that well-loved copy of The Idiot you have in your apartment.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-12 12:07 am (UTC)(Confession: I'm not really sure how my powers work, or their limits. I do have to concentrate to keep everything nicely separate, but I didn't realize it was possible for me to [...] subsume someone else's subconscious like what happened after the storm. I'm figuring out a training routine, so maybe in a few months we'll know more.) I'm not sure, good question. [...] Music historian? Film preservationist? I can sort of see myself as a weird older guy who runs an independent museum out of his apartment.
I know you make me better. You said the other day that the reason I'm into your insect form is because it "reminds [me] there are things much bigger than us at play, and that [I] feel lucky to be a part of it." But you in your normal form remind me of that and make me feel lucky to be a part of things with you, too.
Alright. But you have to promise not to get too annoyed at my comparatively slower reading.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-12 01:04 am (UTC)(A training routine? Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. I'd rather you subsume my subconscious than someone else's. In fact, it would make me like... scary jealous if you made a Mind Palace with another person.) Hmm, I can see that. Or like an art house movie theatre where you only hire youths in the middle of their Adventureland summer. Y'know, give 'em a space to figure things out.
You're in rare form today, Jack. You've got me spinning around in my desk chair like a total dork. What's next? Twirling my hair? [...] I know I'm the one who used the word lucky first, but do you feel like it's luck? Sometimes I think it's more than that.
We can go slow. I just want to hear your inner voice.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-12 02:05 am (UTC)([…] I think the main reason I subsumed you is because on some level, I wanted to. I kind of doubt I’d be able to repeat that with anyone else. Anyway, by training routine I meant more like improving my ability to work metal, or selective mind-linking.) Curmudgeon arthouse theater owner begrudgingly shepherds youths through their growing pains, and sometimes his Talmudic scholar wife pops in to dispense eccentric life advice. I dig it.
I can think of a few other things, now Frankie Medina is free. […] And no, it can’t just be luck. Rifts opened in the sky and made impossible things possible, so it has to be more than luck. […] That’s how I feel, anyway. We met at the wrong time and then the right time—not many people get that kind of a second chance.
We’ll go slow. […] Do you like when people play with your hair?
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-12 05:56 pm (UTC)(I won't lie. I was scared, at the time. But only because I wasn't sure what was going to happen to my body if we couldn't find our way out. I don't mind that you saw my memories(??). Honestly, I'm glad it happened, although it's okay if you don't feel the same way. If it turns out that we can share expertise through a mind-link, I can be your personal inorganic chemistry tutor inside your head. Not that I think you need my help or anything.) Yeah, that's a good one. I like imagining all the different lives I could live with you. What're you gonna do in the time line where I run off to become a horseback acrobat?
Yeah? Like what? 😇 [...] I feel the same way. I just have this sense that we're meant to
be togetherreconnect this way. And that maybe we've connected before.I would like it very much if you played with my hair, yes.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-13 03:10 am (UTC)(At the time I was scared, but I was angrier at myself that it happened. Now that it’s over, I’m glad too, in a weird way. Obviously I enjoy talking to you, but it’s kind of a relief that you might understand things about me now without me having to explain much. And vice versa? Is that what you mean? Also, I was terrible at inorganic chemistry, so I appreciate any help, even belated.) Hm. Die, probably lol. I’m kidding. […] In that one I probably just go to see your show, we make eye contact, then I go home to my ordinary life and never see you again. But I feel changed. There have to be a few like that.
Nice try, Annie. I’m not about to air out my libido on IRIS intranet. Some things have to stay between us. And it’s possible, I like that idea. But I also have a lot to learn about you here and now, where you’re not a horseback acrobat and I’m not a Dune mentat or anything.
Adding it to my list.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-13 03:56 am (UTC)(Yeah, that's what I mean. And it made me realize some things about myself too. Although I do really love talking to you. I hope we don't stop just because we can touch. When I think about us together, I don't usually imagine us kissing, actually. I picture us talking quietly, is that lame? I'd like to hear about your happiest memories and your dumbest ideas and all the things you'd still like to do. I mean, maybe not in the heat of the moment, but I find it satisfying to think about us helping each other get what we want from life.) Eep. To think that was almost this life, except instead of changing you into a jaded daydreamer with an inexplicable obsession with leotards I just changed you into a faster reader.
Can't fault me for trying! [...] You're right. Let's just live this one for now. Although you know I would make a baller Bene Gesserit.
To the list of things I like? You can cross out feet. Or put a little footnote that says 'No more than is usual and acceptable.'
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-13 05:07 am (UTC)(No, let’s keep talking. The mind-linking thing can be for when I need to share an observation quietly. Information-rich footsie, you know? But everything you just wrote, I want that too.) A faster reader with the appropriate level of awe and appreciation for bugs and insects.
You’re kind of already halfway there. Can you do the Voice? I feel like you could, if you really put your mind to it.
Hah. No, foot fetishes are out, scalp massages are in.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-13 07:55 pm (UTC)(Secret spy footsie?! Yesss, I love that. We'll be even more annoying and more incomprehensible to other people than ever before.) 🪳💖
Honestly, I bet I could.
I think I probably have inadvertently used the Voice in the past, actually.I'm not really keen on finding out, in this life, at least.This Dating Jack thing just keeps getting better and better.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-14 01:11 am (UTC)(🦶 can take on a new, noble meaning.)
[…]
Ah. Shit.I’m sorry, Annie, stupid joke. Forget I said that, please.💆🏻♀️ It’s like every single emoji was made for us.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-14 06:35 am (UTC)It's okay. Really. The fact that I've more than likely made people do things that they didn't want to do or say things they didn't want to say is something I'll need to come to terms with eventually. See above.
Anyway, you make me feel 🥰 and I trust you, so I'm going to try not to worry about it.
DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-14 09:43 am (UTC)Oh. […] That’s cute.[…] 🥰 haha. […] Was that good, or should I not do that again? Anyway, I’ll let you do what you gotta do. Talk to you later, Annie. […] ☺️DM, 8/10
Date: 2023-08-14 05:28 pm (UTC)You can send me all the blushing emojis you'd like, if the spirit so moves you. You don't really need to ask permission from me. Talk soon, Jack 🥰