2) Sometimes at school you'd walk around sort of tracing the wall? Was that an affectation? I always thought it was sort of like a pretentious, "oh look at me, I'm in a reverie" thing, but maybe not.
3) Would you feel worse being alone somewhere remote or alone somewhere busy and crowded?
Okay, it is officially late enough at night that I have become untethered from myself and feel comfortable answering these.
1) 100 Years of Solitude. [...] I enjoy epics, magical realism, family drama, and romance. That's enough for now.
2) This is humiliating. Did you know when you asked this that it would be a one hit KO? Did everyone in school think I was a manic pixie pick-me girl? Ugh, it's a bug thing! I think.[...] Being out in the open makes me incredibly nervous. I crave[...] need to touch be near to walls, or objects, or other people. I can control it though, so it's fine. I won't touch you.
1) [...] Do And the names José and Aureliano. Noted.
2) Oh I didn't mean it but. Lol. This is kind of funny. [...] Well, not the part about being nervous, that's awf a bummer. Baseball days during PE must not have been fun, huh?
I can't speak for everyone else we went to school with, but I definitely thought you were trying to cultivate a thing. Not like a pick-me thing, but an "I'm different and better than you" thing. If it's any consolation, you pulled it off. [...] Is it all the same to you, or are some things better than others? Like cool objects > warm objects, people > things? [...] I figure I should know, if someone is ever like, "Hey what's up with your wifegirl Annie?"
2) Right. Which is such a shame because I look so cute in a baseball uniform. My head is the perfect shape for a baseball cap.
Wow, you really did not like me, huh? I wasn't like ... actively trying to run the school, you know. [...] I was mostly taught one-on-one as a kid, so I think I was more comfortable speaking to adults than other students were. Maybe I had an easier time because of that.
Um, I do prefer people but I think that's a human condition thing, not an insect thing. In terms of tactile experiences, pressure is tops. That's why I lean back in my chair a lot. I'm pressing my shoulder blades against the backrest, not trying to look too cool for school. No one has ever asked about it before though. I think people just assume I'm clingy in a normal way.
1) You can try, but I guarantee you you never will.
2) [...] Sure lol.
And it wasn't anything personal. [...] Well lmfao no it was entirely personal. I don't know, it was just so frustrating when you'd be like, "Dostoevsky was one of the rare masters of the polyphonic form blah blah blah," and even Ms. Kholodenko would smile and say, "That's exactly right, Annie." But then if I tried to point out his religious views were pretty rigidly consistent from Crime and Punishment onward, so maybe he wasn't actually dipping in and out of completely independent perspectives, everyone would just be like, "Sure, whatever Jack." Every single time.
Although typing all that out now reads as kind of neurotic lmfao.
[...] Are you clingy with most people? Is it going to look weird if you're not clingy with me?
1) Oh? Alright, I'm going to delay my turn then and return to this when I have a mountain of evidence so compelling and convincing that you can not deny me.
2) Well, that argument ignores the historical context of his works. They're bound by time and place, so of course his character's are restricted to[...] That is annoying, yeah. I'm sorry. If it makes you feel better, I don't remember anyone else at school pissing me off the way you did, which is a sign that you were probably right.
I haven't been in a relationship while at Enodia, so most people won't have anything to compare my behavior to anyway. I would say I'm relatively physically affectionate but I don't think it will strike people as odd that we're not attached at the hip. I keep busy. Or maybe people will just assume I yearn with an intensity so enormous that I have to stay away lol.
[...] What about you? How should I be acting toward you?
2) My sixteen-year-old self is saying of course I was right. 🙂 [...] But you don't have anything to apologize for. People finding you more convincingly correct isn't exactly something you can control lol. I was reactive and immature. I sucked in high school.
Pickings that slim? Oooooor is it that nobody here ignores you the right way? [...] I guess if we're not attached at the hip, that'll make things easier for when you do eventually find someone.
And any way you want, I guess. The only relationships I've ever been in were long-distance. Maybe [...] talking to me from time to time? Or if you hear a good song, you could let me know? This probably isn't helpful.
2) Yeah, well, my sixteen year old self was getting invited to parties.[…] I could have been more… open to intellectual collaboration. I’m still working on that. You can take the girl out of debate, but you can’t take that dog out of the debater, y’know?
But it’s water under the bridge. We were just kids. […] You’re nothing like I remember anyway.
Dating hasn’t been a priority for me, that’s all. Besides, it seems unwise to date your colleagues. Look around. The claws are out already.
Okay… but if I do something you don’t like and you make a shitty little face I’m going to be mad. I’m obviously going to talk to you. You don’t have to be so accommodating. Use your imagination!
2) You know what's funny? We actually were collaborating intellectually for a long-ass time. And I'm nothing like you remember by design. Believe it or not, the guys at Zeta Phi Ro didn't think my Jack Torrance impression was cool.
Just your Philomathean Society and randoms online, huh? Are the claws really that bad?
[...] ?? I don't do shitty little faces. And even if I did, I wouldn't stop. Don't marry someone expecting them to change for you. Anyway, I'm not being accommodating. Let me get back to you on this.
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dm [5/22, evening]
Date: 2023-05-24 04:18 am (UTC)dm [5/22, evening]
Date: 2023-05-24 04:32 am (UTC)1) Favorite book, and the reason why?
2) Sometimes at school you'd walk around sort of tracing the wall? Was that an affectation? I always thought it was sort of like a pretentious, "oh look at me, I'm in a reverie" thing, but maybe not.
3) Would you feel worse being alone somewhere remote or alone somewhere busy and crowded?
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-24 08:03 pm (UTC)1) 100 Years of Solitude. [...] I enjoy epics, magical realism, family drama, and romance. That's enough for now.
2) This is humiliating. Did you know when you asked this that it would be a one hit KO? Did everyone in school think I was a manic pixie pick-me girl? Ugh, it's a bug thing!
I think.[...] Being out in the open makes me incredibly nervous. Icrave[...] need totouchbe near to walls, or objects, or other people. I can control it though, so it's fine. I won't touch you.3) ^^^
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-24 08:44 pm (UTC)DoAnd the names José and Aureliano. Noted.2) Oh I didn't mean it but. Lol. This is kind of funny. [...] Well, not the part about being nervous, that's
awfa bummer. Baseball days during PE must not have been fun, huh?I can't speak for everyone else we went to school with, but I definitely thought you were trying to cultivate a thing. Not like a pick-me thing, but an "I'm different and better than you" thing. If it's any consolation, you pulled it off. [...] Is it all the same to you, or are some things better than others? Like cool objects > warm objects, people > things? [...] I figure I should know, if someone is ever like, "Hey what's up with
your wifegirlAnnie?"dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-24 09:18 pm (UTC)2) Right. Which is such a shame because I look so cute in a baseball uniform. My head is the perfect shape for a baseball cap.
Wow, you really did not like me, huh? I wasn't like ... actively trying to run the school, you know. [...] I was mostly taught one-on-one as a kid, so I think I was more comfortable speaking to adults than other students were. Maybe I had an easier time because of that.
Um, I do prefer people but I think that's a human condition thing, not an insect thing. In terms of tactile experiences, pressure is tops. That's why I lean back in my chair a lot. I'm pressing my shoulder blades against the backrest, not trying to look too cool for school. No one has ever asked about it before though. I think people just assume I'm clingy in a normal way.
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-24 10:00 pm (UTC)2) [...] Sure lol.
And it wasn't anything personal. [...] Well lmfao no it was entirely personal. I don't know, it was just so frustrating when you'd be like, "Dostoevsky was one of the rare masters of the polyphonic form blah blah blah," and even Ms. Kholodenko would smile and say, "That's exactly right, Annie." But then if I tried to point out his religious views were pretty rigidly consistent from Crime and Punishment onward, so maybe he wasn't actually dipping in and out of completely independent perspectives, everyone would just be like, "Sure, whatever Jack." Every single time.
Although typing all that out now reads as kind of neurotic lmfao.
[...] Are you clingy with most people? Is it going to look weird if you're not clingy with me?
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-24 10:44 pm (UTC)2)
Well, that argument ignores the historical context of his works. They're bound by time and place, so of course his character's are restricted to[...] That is annoying, yeah. I'm sorry. If it makes you feel better, I don't remember anyone else at school pissing me off the way you did, which is a sign that you were probably right.I haven't been in a relationship while at Enodia, so most people won't have anything to compare my behavior to anyway. I would say I'm relatively physically affectionate but I don't think it will strike people as odd that we're not attached at the hip. I keep busy. Or maybe people will just assume I yearn with an intensity so enormous that I have to stay away lol.
[...] What about you? How should I be acting toward you?
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-24 11:09 pm (UTC)2) My sixteen-year-old self is saying of course I was right. 🙂 [...] But you don't have anything to apologize for. People finding you more convincingly correct isn't exactly something you can control lol. I was reactive and immature. I sucked in high school.
Pickings that slim? Oooooor is it that nobody here ignores you the right way? [...] I guess if we're not attached at the hip, that'll make things easier for when you do eventually find someone.
And any way you want, I guess. The only relationships I've ever been in were long-distance. Maybe [...] talking to me from time to time? Or if you hear a good song, you could let me know? This probably isn't helpful.
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-25 12:18 am (UTC)2)
Yeah, well, my sixteen year old self was getting invited to parties.[…] I could have been more… open to intellectual collaboration. I’m still working on that. You can take the girl out of debate, but you can’t take that dog out of the debater, y’know?But it’s water under the bridge. We were just kids. […] You’re nothing like I remember anyway.
Dating hasn’t been a priority for me, that’s all. Besides, it seems unwise to date your colleagues. Look around. The claws are out already.
Okay… but if I do something you don’t like and you make a shitty little face I’m going to be mad. I’m obviously going to talk to you. You don’t have to be so accommodating. Use your imagination!
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-25 12:43 am (UTC)2) You know what's funny? We actually were collaborating intellectually for a long-ass time. And I'm nothing like you remember by design. Believe it or not, the guys at Zeta Phi Ro didn't think my Jack Torrance impression was cool.
Just your Philomathean Society and randoms online, huh? Are the claws really that bad?
[...] ?? I don't do shitty little faces. And even if I did, I wouldn't stop. Don't marry someone expecting them to change for you. Anyway, I'm not being accommodating. Let me get back to you on this.
dm [5/22, late]
Date: 2023-05-25 01:14 am (UTC)Yep, just my mind, me, and the endless dark scroll of the internet. You didn’t notice Raine and Enoch sniping at each other?
I agree with that actually. I’ll just have to do all the changing before the wedding. Thank you 💕