Sorry. I fell asleep doing some reading for work. Your Shinzo Abe chat up line text is actually what woke me up. So, thank you for that. Kept me from sleeping on the couch all night.
Anyway, wow. 👏 👏 👏 Excellent distillation of the most salient points, and delivered with such a gentle touch.
Annie at 17 would have written several ungenerous and incredibly mean spirited diary entries about this analysis in glitter gel pen. How dare you acknowledge your positionality before I've even had the chance to accuse you of not acknowledging it, etc. etc. etc. But she would have been wrong to do so. You should feel bad for [Jeremy Hyslop]. The worst thing he ever did to me was not like me, and I knew that and pursued him anyway. That's pretty toxic. All of my favorite stories and pieces of art were about beautiful suffering and I was sssssliving in the most milquetoast way imaginable, so I guess I just got bored? Nothing bad ever happened to me (beyond the whole getting shipped off to boarding school for being a bug thing.) I know you are absolutely going to read too far into this next bit, and I strongly urge you not to: but, I remember thinking that Lise's love for Aloysha was they height of human suffering. And maybe I just thought it would be cool to go sicko mode like Lise and "derive mental satisfaction from thinking" about it, as you so elegantly put it. But idk, this is all in retrospect. I grew out of whatever all that was. And you said you're into 🚩🚩🚩 anyway.
You passed, btw.
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[1] I'm sure I never would have heard the end of it if my birth had given my mother any trouble. [2] Lots of reasons! I'm a naturally curious person and I take great pleasure experiencing new things, even objectively negative things (as you may have surmised.) And as you also noted, I'm a "very cerebral, stuck-in-their[my]-own-head type of person." I did not grow out of that. So, it's nice to get out of the lab and actually see and feel new things, outside of myself. Plus, it's pretty out there. [3] Oh, yes. I have a massive sweet tooth. And I love squishy textures, like mochi cake. Or gummy candy, but I'm pretty particular. Haribo = 👎
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Date: 2023-06-08 12:40 am (UTC)Anyway, wow. 👏 👏 👏 Excellent distillation of the most salient points, and delivered with such a gentle touch.
Annie at 17 would have written several ungenerous and incredibly mean spirited diary entries about this analysis in glitter gel pen. How dare you acknowledge your positionality before I've even had the chance to accuse you of not acknowledging it, etc. etc. etc. But she would have been wrong to do so. You should feel bad for [Jeremy Hyslop]. The worst thing he ever did to me was not like me, and I knew that and pursued him anyway. That's pretty toxic. All of my favorite stories and pieces of art were about beautiful suffering and I was sssssliving in the most milquetoast way imaginable, so I guess I just got bored? Nothing bad ever happened to me (beyond the whole getting shipped off to boarding school for being a bug thing.) I know you are absolutely going to read too far into this next bit, and I strongly urge you not to: but, I remember thinking that Lise's love for Aloysha was they height of human suffering. And maybe I just thought it would be cool to go sicko mode like Lise and "derive mental satisfaction from thinking" about it, as you so elegantly put it. But idk, this is all in retrospect. I grew out of whatever all that was. And you said you're into 🚩🚩🚩 anyway.
You passed, btw.
Answers:
[1] I'm sure I never would have heard the end of it if my birth had given my mother any trouble.
[2] Lots of reasons! I'm a naturally curious person and I take great pleasure experiencing new things, even objectively negative things (as you may have surmised.) And as you also noted, I'm a "very cerebral, stuck-in-their[my]-own-head type of person." I did not grow out of that. So, it's nice to get out of the lab and actually see and feel new things, outside of myself. Plus, it's pretty out there.
[3] Oh, yes. I have a massive sweet tooth. And I love squishy textures, like mochi cake. Or gummy candy, but I'm pretty particular. Haribo = 👎