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“I cannot make you understand.
I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me.
I cannot even explain it to myself.”

dm [6/6, later]

Date: 2023-06-07 12:51 am (UTC)
nolitangere: (164)
From: [personal profile] nolitangere
I've prepared my psychoanalytic report of that playlist you sent me. Honestly, even if it's supposed to be funny, it doesn't seem like it is to me? I also feel like I'm walking into a pit trap with this one, given that we promised to be kind but there's a high likelihood that my psychoanalysis will read as unkind. So, you know. Understand I'm typing this with so much kindness in my hands right now. I'm the King Midas of kind.

I think the subject of the playlist is maybe a little [...] addicted? (is that the right word?) to the idea of emotional/physical/spiritual dissatisfaction. All the songs are about feeling unfulfilled, but it seems like the subject has made unfulfillment part of their identity. Maybe something unhappy and cruel happened to them early on, like someone important to them let them down in a very painful way, and now they're stuck (maybe subconsciously) on the idea that unhappy, disappointing, or cruel things will always happen to them. My sense is that they might not know what to do with themselves if something genuinely good happened. They might not even recognize it as a good thing. But they at least derive mental satisfaction from thinking about their situation, so there's that. A very cerebral, stuck-in-their-own-head type of person.

So in a way, I feel a little bad for the object of the playlist. Obviously, they're a loser, but I also think there's almost no way they can win with the subject. It's also possible the subject doesn't really know the object or their motivations very well at all. But of course, as Pierre Bourdieu would point out, my psychoanalysis is informed by my own positionality. Male chauvinism, gendered cultural norms, you get it. [...] And I'm thinking now that maybe you fed me this playlist to psychoanalyze my psychoanalysis, and if that's the case, good play lol.

Anyway, cool playlist, seriously. I added "Face Down" to my lifting mix. Questions:

- Were you an induced labor for medical reasons? […] Or was it a non-medical scheduling reason?
- Why did you choose to be an Explorer?
- Do you like sweets?
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